Sunday, October 19, 2003

[music|the very best of otis redding]

i went to a party. that is all. you deserve. to know.

"It is not given us to live lives of undisrupted calm, boredom, and mediocrity. It is given us to be edge-dwellers."
~ Jay Deacon

Lisa | 3:12 PM


Yesterday I was sitting at the stoplight just waiting for my car to explode with me inside it. I could feel it coming. I could hear it coming... Well, I'm not dead yet, but just you wait.

"I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live up to what light I might have."
~ Abraham Lincoln

Lisa | 3:43 PM




The guy at Suncoast didn't know what Donnie Darko was. Blasphemy.

Lisa | 4:36 PM


a picture says a thousand words


Lisa | 4:56 PM



Monday, October 20, 2003

i want this ring or this ring.
i can just picture the look on the face of the kid sitting next to me when he notices it. *grin*

go here today.

Lisa | 7:47


I saw that minivan again today. The one with the "WUT EVA" license plate and the "I *heart* Pilates" bumper sticker. Too funny.

My faith in life has been restored (for the time being). I had the whole house to myself this morning and it was nice to sit on the porch in the swing-a-ding-ding and drink my coffee and not really care about anything except for where are all the fucking bugs coming from?

I came home from work with a head full of ideas for my campaign posters. I sent a few ideas to some friends via email in hopes of getting some feedback. I'll probably post them once they're finished. I aimed for humor and as we all know, I'm a magnificent archer. Even ask my old gym teacher.

My dad's birthday is coming up and I don't know whether I should buy him a new coffee pot or just get him a card. I got a card from him for my 18th birthday. It said, "Happy Birthday. Your present is coming later." I never did get a present. My brother got a brand-new car. But that's not really important, I guess.

Colin came home from Los Angeles this weekend and he was supposed to see me, but he never returned my call. I was even going to take him out to dinner. Oh well. It'll give me more time to read that book I borrowed from him.

I found a cocklebur stuck to the bottom of my jeans. *sigh* It's been too long...


Lisa | 7:56 PM



three of many ideas for campaign posters...
one
two
three

Lisa | 9:21 PM



Tuesday, October 21, 2003

to allibar
the royal tenenbaums = another good movie
(click it)

Lisa | 12:20 AM



Thursday, October 23, 2003

things i found out today:
haircuts make me happy
high maintenance ones do not
too many sweets will give me cavities
too many cigarettes will give me throat cancer
too much sushi makes me sick
too much sex makes me tired

Lisa | 12:44 am



Friday, October 24, 2003

[ripoff]
"We've all lost our children. It's like the children of America are dead to us. Just look at them, for God's sake -- violent on the streets, comatose in the malls, narcotized in front of the TV. In my lifetime something terrible happened that took our children away from us. I don't know if it was the Vietnam war, or the sexual colonization of kids by industry, or drugs, or TV, or divorce, or what the hell it was; I don't know which are causes and which are effects; but the children are gone, that I know. So that trying to protect them is little more than an elaborate exercise in denial. Religious fanatics and superpatriots, they try to protect their kids by turning them into schizophrenics; Episcopalians and High Church Jews gratefully abandon their kids to boarding schools and divorce one another so they can get laid with impunity; the middle class grabs what it can buy and passes it on, like poisoned candy on Halloween; and meanwhile the inner-city blacks and poor whites in the boonies sell their souls with longing for what's killing everyone else's kids and wonder why theirs are on crack. It's too late; they're gone; we're what's left." - Russell Banks, "The Sweet Hereafter"
[/ripoff]

Lisa | 4:04 PM




Saturday, October 25, 2003

i used to be a wonderful writer. what happened? even my guidance counselor would read my journal and compliment my writing. when she wasn't looking for subtle hints of suicidal thoughts. counselors live for that shit.

i drove down to lincoln the other night to go to club energy with some friends. it was college night, but what we didn't know was that it was 19 and older. of course i was the only 18-year-old in the group. it's not fair. you can be 18 and be a college student. jerks. talia was nice enough to spend a couple hours with me while everyone else went in the club. afterwards we went to pick up our friends. all the bars let out at 1 am, so we met a bajillion people in the street looking for after-hours parties. at one guy's house, i got to play with his pet snake. normally i'm not a snake-person, but this one was pretty calm. spent the night at some girl's apartment and drove home to omaha in the morning. i felt pretty good that day because the guy at Quizno's hit on me. whoo hoo.

i can't go to the Blue October concert tonight because the show sold out and the people at the Music Box were never there to sell me tickets. blah. silver lining is the party's still on. it starts at ten and drinks are free so anyone who wants to come, give me a call.

i finally cleaned my room! i didn't think it could be done, but i can walk all the way to the other side without tripping. huzzah!

Lisa | 2:14 pm



Monday, October 27, 2003

something positive

all i'm saying is that if a guy tells me i can't possibly stick crazy straw all the way up his smallest orifice, that's a challenge and i'm honor bound to accept!

Lisa | 8:04 pm

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

Don't have a cow, man. Give one instead.

Heifer International

Lisa | 1:06 PM

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

[music| ben folds five, something corporate, dave matthews band]

this week is national collegiate alcohol awareness week. how has alcohol impacted improved your life?

today i got an email from anti. that was the last thing i expected. i suppose i figured he never even knew i existed. it's amazing how you feel like you know someone so well just by reading their thoughts. he reminds me a lot of seth sometimes. i read about his life every day and i reminsce of my own adventures in california and dream about the life i wish i was living. not this one.

i came to a realization the other day as i was zoning out in anthropology class. however, i took down notes quite vigorously in spite of my daydream. i hate when people ask to borrow my notes because they never return them and i doubt they could ever read them anyway. after all the lectures i've been given i've developed my own sort of shorthand that isn't terribly difficult to figure out, but it's always the stupid people who ask to borrow notes so i don't bother to give them the benefit of the doubt. back to my epiphany... i decided i will end up being a dentist because it's a lucrative profession that i enjoy most days (this morning we had a bleeder - it was pretty cool) and i don't think i really have the ambition or motivation to do anything else. i saw a sign in the journalism lab that said "help! i'm a journalism major but i don't want to be a journalist." yeah, i decided i don't want to be some lame-ass reporter for the omaha world herald. i enjoy freelance writing, but i hate going out of my way to contact sources and get information. so this sign had a little thing you could tear off and guess what i did? i tore it off. yeah yeah. it had some information about advertising which i contemplated for awhile because i've always been involved in publicity and marketing and shit, but i don't think i wanna do that the rest of my life either. so i'm going to be a dentist. i'll be my own boss doing my thang down in the ghetto offering low-cost services to anyone who wants 'em. after california i fell in love with the hispanic culture and if seth moves here he'll most likely end up living down in south o (little mexico) so it all works out. at least, in my head. what sucks is that creightion offers african studies and black studies and western european studies and everything else except hispanic/latino studies. bitches. wish me luck. i'll be making money someday...somewhere...somehow...i hope.

i attended a lecture about the SOA and why it should closed and it was all old news to me but i went anyway. it reminded me of ms. davies. i wonder how she's doing over there in nepal. she's the first person that really got me into justice and peace and after she left i sort of just dropped it for awhile. i'm not making any pilgrammages to ft. benning this november though. there was a guy who just returned to creighton this semester after spending six months in jail for crossing the line down at the protest. he had this crazy long goatee. he was sitting next to this fugly chick who had the most annoying aura about her and i hated that she sat in front of me because she had this kind of hair that was not made to be worn down. peaceniks tend to get really excited over the tiniest things. that's one thing i don't miss about it.

i met a cute guy named hank today. i was just sitting there tokin up when he came by and said hello. word has it he's a vegan. word also has it that his ex-roommate peed on him twice while he was drunk. not kosher, or as candi would say, not down with the jews. ha, the jews. we learn about jews in my christianity class. and native americans and hawaiians and muslims and every other religion but christianity. i find it amusing. we still get stuck studying the bible though. i've been over that shit so many times in the last thirteen years i'm starting to get sick of it. minus the starting to.

i came home at four in the morning last night. yeah, my dad was pissed. i totally meant to be home around ten thirty but i of course have no self control and ended up having sex three times. first time with handcuffs and a cock ring. very interesting....

quote of last night:
gecko: "have you been smoking? your fingers smell like it."
me: "hmm, and by the smell of your hands i can tell you've been fingering your asshole again."

Lisa | 6:41 pm



comment responses

to gina - what happened to not adding another blog to the ten bajillion you already have? and what have i told you about advertising? no sweat though. just let me know when to come over and i'll help you set it up. and if you're bisexual, why are my nakie pics making you blush? they make me horny.

to anti - that is a guy who knows just whom he is talking to. most girls don't enjoy giving head, and that is one reason why this world is such a sad, sad place.

funny story -
a girl who shall remain anonymous was telling me about how she thought the idea of a guy cumming in her mouth was disgusting so i suggested she just have the guy tell her when he's about to cum and then have him roll over.
the girl: "they can tell?"
the rest of the party: BAH HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!
don't feel bad chica. i don't think i really figured that out until i started giving head anyway.
sex is not evil.

Lisa | 6:57 pm



Thursday, October 30, 2003



Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman Are You?

Lisa | 8:17 am



comment responses

to ps - candi's not a biggot. she's one of the least prejudiced people i've ever met. if something's not kosher, is does in fact mean that it doesn't adhere to jewish dietary laws. so why the animosity? just because you refer to a religion in a general sense doesn't mean that you're putting them down. i think anytime anyone mentions the word "jew" these days there's always some negative conntation that runs along with it. same with muslims. if i walked around saying "down with the christians" would you be calling me a fucking biggot? yeah, didn't think so. by the way, you're banned....bitch.
p.s. who's to say i wasn't having sex with seth? this is not "office space" so pack away your jump to conclusions mat for another day.

to jankie - my grades aren't down. they're sort of just there. midterms were mostly b's, but i plan on bringing them up to save my scholarship. i'm taking harder classes next semester (for the most part) so i'm thinking that all the busy work will prompt me to excel. it's so hard to force yourself to study when there's so much free time!

Lisa | 5:15 pm



friday: halloween party. going as blue fairy
saturday: cleaning day. if i don't do it right this time i'm going to be fired. family portrait at dad's church. possible frat party.
sunday: sean is making me spaghetti.

today: class cancelled. made more formal campaign posters. my "team" will post them. caramel apples with coconut in the dining hall. patient brought me halloween goodies. pay day. went to boring ass lecture with talia. fell asleep. bonded with brother over my book collection. need a fucking shower.

Lisa | 9:12 pm



Friday, October 31, 2003

i received a link to an online journal the other day. rather, it is the posting of letters sent home to her family. ms. molly davies, my former social justice teacher, left us this summer to go teach in nepal. now she is a peacenik indeead, and i look up to her with a great deal of admiration. she has taught me so much, whether she knows it or not, and from my experiences with her i have discovered a great deal about myself. i always wanted to thank her for making me write that paper on just war theory because the knowledge has come in handy so many times since. i only read a paragraph of one of her letters before making this entry, and i can already tell that her living situation is most dangerous. it seems so surreal to read her letters from overseas. they've a more passive tone, whereas i always felt a little intimidated when she spoke to me. not only because she was so tall, but also because of her intelligence. i believe she attended harvard as well as boston college. there's so much i could say about ms. davies but i really haven't the time. to former mercians, go read her letters and get a taste of her new life. and hope that she remains forever happy and safe.

Lisa | 9:19 am



Thursday, October 2, 2003

so i guess this is my secret blog where i spew out how things really are.

so what is there to tell? i called up my fuck buddy yesterday and greeted him with "hey, guess who's not pregnant?!" yeah, that's right -- i cheated on my boyfriend six or seven times with a radio dj who can buy me alcohol. we've become really good friends, although it looks as though he's stood me up for the movies tonight. the fucker screens his calls. i hate that shit. to make myself feel better, i smoked a nice, expensive menthol cigarette and started a new blog. i have way too many websites to be considered sane anymore. being on my period has given me the shits. or maybe is was that greasy slice of pepperoni from pizza slut. either way, it's stinky. i guess it's good i'm not going to the movies after all.

oh yeah. if i ever find out who took a baseball bat to my car, they're gonna end up mummified in duct tape like that poor nine-year-old kid who was simply caught stealing cookies from his kitchen. fuckin' child abusers. they make me sick.

Lisa | 8:55 pm



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